i think the worst feeling in the world is a broken heart. whether it come from death of a family member, or a break up, even loss in contact, you still have that feeling of missing somebody, it could only be one person, but it seems as if half of your heart is gone. i just got dumped, and i know its for good this time. i just feel it already, that feeling of theres no way of getting ehr back. defeat. not trying to make it sound like its a game and i got defeated, just the feeling sucks. i know its not the end of the world, more people will come in and out of my life. but it just seems as if it is. i love this girl so much more than words can explain, i talk to her every second of the day,  and its been 8 minutes and i already miss her. i know people say “its not like you thought you would be together forever” except, i actually thought we would. we were that one in a millino couple. that couple that made it through not only distance, but through cheating, through hard times, through losses in our family, death of family members, through drama, through pain, we made it through the hardest of times. some days i didnt think we could make it. longest i have been without this person for the last ten months is a week we were broken up for. i feel stupid because id do anything for that week back to make up for that time. i know its my fault why we are broken up. and i know this person needs to let go, and explore bigger and better things, better guys, guys that will hold this person, and be there for this person, “to wipe away tears”, it just sucks. because knowing i thought wed be togheter forever, i thought that this was never the end, that we were going to make it, when hard times came it was just a bump and we would hold hands and get passed it. i know im a baby, i know i cant handle much. and this person didnt care, well yeah the person did, but they would be there for me, i know there is nobody like this person. and i love her so much more than anything in this world. and this is my explaination on why im not going to beg, she knows where to find me if she wants me, if she wants to talk to me, if she wants to give this relationship another shot. but for now, i dont know how to move further. the question is, how do i get through this broken heart? i know i will find a way, but hopefully its sooner than later, and if this person is reading, i kknow you know who you are, i love you so much. i wish i could give you the world, and i cant, but anyways yeah.

-Anthony Ortega

I love you so much. Thanks so much for putting up with all my bull shit I put u through. I don’t know of any girl who would, excpet u. U aren’t like any other girl though. Your not even perfect ur way better than perfect. Ur amazing. U say the funniest things, like was it like muah was it, or was it like ahhhh. Haha ill never forget that. I just love you sooooooooooo much its not even funny. Like your the most beautiful girl in the world, you could get any guy but u decide to stick with a gu ylike me and I appreciate it so much. I don’t think I’d want to be with me if I was with me. We aren’t afraid to tell eachother how we are feeling and that’s the greatest part of our realtionship. Your always here for me no matter what and I cna not thank youe nough for being here. Whenever I need you whenever something is bugging u I can count on you to be there for me until the very end, until I’m better. Your something else. I’m the luckiest guy int he universe to even get to know you, and I got a chance to go out with you? Fuck I’m so lucky. I don’t know what I’d do without you. That’s why I get so crazy when we break up cuz its impossible to live without you. I understand I turned u off and u may not be loving me a lot anymore but I just want you to know that I love you with all my heart and I never want to lose oyu. I get so jealous because I know how good you are and how lucky I am and how lucky nay guy would be. I love you my little girl.
-anthony ortega

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because arguing with you is among the many things i miss about us.

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im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry for ruining ur night tongiht. its just i thought i needed u, and i love you so much, and i just wanted to talk to you. and then natalie, you know my deal with her, and she yeah, like i try to get along with ur friends, but its just uh like dont be in my buisness, howdy. SHOUT OUT TO BREE DUNAWAY, only friend i like of yours, only friend of yours that likes me haha. well babe i love you so much, and im soooo sorry for ruining it. now u want to go to bed. NO. ur not tired, i know u arent. im stalling u with toothpaste talk (: u use colgate, i use crest. i love crest so fresh so clean. it makes me teeth white. u have the worst tan babe. its ok u still look beautiful. i think if u like were a hobo, i would still think ur beautiful, cuz i love you so much. and you are my world. without you i am so lost, and i do not know hwat to do. you mean soooooooooooo much tom e, we are still talking about tooth paste and mouth wash. this is why i love us so much, because we can talk about random things and we can talk about little things for hours. i still feel terrible for ditching u. but babe tyra has nothing on u. hahah, i love you with ur run way walk, and ur little poses are so cute. just evertytihng about you is amazing, ur mine, and only mine, and i love knowing that. i have never wanted a girl more than i want u, u are my everything, u r what i live for, i wake up happy, so i can text u, or usually i get texts from u from the previous night, cuz i fell asleep on, sorry babe my bed time is so early haha, ur jsut my little party animal, my cutie patooty, and my little girl, i love you more than words can explain, i cant wait till we move to arizona whe nwe get married, with our guest bedroom, and trampoline, where one of our kids will berak there leg, then i can say i told you so babe, and our _______ on it haha. and our pool, and our yellow walls. babe im so sprung and im not afraid to admit it, im whipped for you and only you, im all yours babe, everything, i give you everything i have, and you know everything about me, and i know everything baout you, thats the best part, well this is long and im tired.

so i love you baby,

anthony rotega

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Distance Doesn’t Matter

i might sound stupid writing this. considering you dont want me anymore, but ill do anything to try to win you back. well we broke up because, of distance. of course. im sorry that is out of our hands. im sorry we fell for eachother, actually i am not sorry. because it happened, it was meant to happen, we love eachother, we belong together, it just so happens we live farther then most. i love you so much. i wish we didnt break up. i know i get mad, like i did this morning, and you arent talking to me anymore. but i wont quit if you dont want me to. its just that you promised me, and everytime somebody breaks a promise it hurts, and it happens that i love you, so when you break a promise it hurts a little bit more. im not telling you to quit, or anything. this morning i wanted you back, i was prepared to get you back, but it didnt happent hat way. im sorry for getting mad easily, you just get me mad more because once again i love you so much, i just want the best for oyu. we have the best time talking, anytime we are talking i am constantly smiling. just thinking about you right now i have a smile on my face. you have that way of talking though, that is just like it makes everybody happy, your personality is amazing. and your so beautiful, you can look amazing wihtout even trying. we have ben fighting a lot lately, i mean a lot a lot a lot. and i know they are my fault, i accept that i have been the one causing them. and i know that its just not me going through difficult times, and i also know that you need me there for you, as much as i need you. but something else i know, is that i love you so much, and i need you in my life, and that there is no other girl like you, and i know we are meant to be, and i know things will get better, and wwe are going through a rough time in our relationship, and i just hope we can over come it. i know your talking to another guy, and i can tell you im so jealous haha. but hes lucky, and i know the guy wont fuck up. it just sucks that this guy goes to my school, and i see this guy. just knowing that he has you, you were mine remember. my little girl haha. and i was your baby, eventhough im a big kid. fuck i even got glasses cuz you said they were cool and i needde them (: they look nice by the way, and they help. anyways, we just have been through so much, i dont even know if this thing makes sense, i doubt it does. but i just wanted to let you know, i need you, and i feel so stupid for letting you go, because your my number one, the best thing that has ever happened to me, and i let you get away. and i know a millino other guys want you, and a million other guys will be lucky to even talk to you for a minute. and i was lucky enugh to have oyu and i was a dick and let you get away. just i need another cahnce, i know you give me so many chances, but just one more, all im asking.

i love you

anthony ortega

i miss her already. and she hasnt even signed out yet. this is always the worst part of the night her signing out. because i know its the last time we will talk until i wake up. i sound stupid, that i get so sad ove rher leaving. but shei s my everything. i couldnt even, wait shes calling me (: ok we are talking so im happy (: shes singing to me now. now kissing me. she says im inpatient. she will proabbly ask what im doing in 3 2 1. NO SHES LEAVING ME. fuck. haha. well i love her so mmuch, i couldnt even imagine never talking to her again. i would miss her way to much. it would be like  half my heart would be missing. we are getting matching little scar carving shit. but mines half a heart and she has the other half. it hurts me but not her. its embarrsing. and she calls me stupid. well i forgot what she called me. oh a wuss. shes leaving me again ): this sucks. haha im done with this. shes telling me im confusing.  i hate the feeling of missing somebody. but i love when we finally talk again. cause its the best feeling. like if your heart is completely again. if you just had like the biggest energy boost. i know she doesnt know that i love her as much as i do. its crazy though. i love her so much. i never want her to change. eventhough shes telling me a story. and im not listening. actually i am. and doing this. because i know this will make her happy. and i love when shes happy. i am soooo happy whenever she is. i love you babe.

anthony ortega

Of uselessness. there is nothing i can do to possibly help her. and i hate it. i wish i could just like drive there and leave everything, but of course it isnt that simple. i wish i could just help her. i wish i could just make her happy. but of course it isnt that simple. i wish i could just simply hold her. but of course it isnt that simple. i just want her to be happy, i would probably give up my happiness and everything, just to make her happy. i wish i could just like take my happiness and put it on her. but of course it isnt that simple. i hate seeing her cry, it is the worst feeling. i could only sit there and watch her cry. i hate that feeling, of uselessness. nothing i can do to cheer her up. i just want her to know that she is the most amazing girl i ahve ever met, there is no other girl like you, no other girl compares to you. you have it all, you are so fuckin beautiful it is not even funny. you make me laugh all the time, and you dont even need to try. you just say something and we both start just busting up in laughter. that is when i love you the most. when you are happy. when there is nobody that can possibly bring you down. you have that personality that just talking to you, puts you in a good mood, not just a good mood, the best of moods. you are the best at whatever you do, no matter what. cheering, running, soccer, or just being there for me. fuck i just exited it, and i pressed retrieve and this is all it saved. but anyways. your always tehre for me. no matter what,  i think that is why i feel so bad, and so guilty. cause you have that power to make me happy, and just feel so lucky, like i know i am, and i cant give you taht. you are the world to me. i wish i could just like clap my hands and you just feel all the things i feel for you, but of course it is not that simple. i tell you i want to marry you one day, and i honestly genuinly mean that, there is not other girl like you, there is no other girl i would even think to spend my life with, i wish we were old enough because i would marry you in  a second. you are my world stephanie. i wish you knew how uch you ment to me. maybe hten you would feel special, you would feel everything i feel for you. because i love you so much. i cant even explain how much i love you, because if i explained it, just thinking about you, i would have to reexplain it because i would fall for you even more. and even more. and even more. i didnt even know it was possible to love somebody or something so much. we have the best times together, the best the best times. i think the best part of being in a long distance realtionship is that i fell for your personality, not your looks, not the physical part, but for your personality, for the things you say, for the things you accomplish, the way you present yourself to the world, the way you make me so happy, and everything just about you is why i fell in love with you. why i fell so hard for you. well i know i cant just snap my fingers and make you happy, and im sorry that i cant do that. im sorry i cant cheer you up. im sorry you dont feel special. im sorry your going through this. im sorry that i cant do anything right. im sorry im useless to you. but stephanie i love you so much, you are everything to me, you are the specialist girl to me stephanie. there is no other girl i would rather talk to, there is no other girl i would write all thsi about, i sat and sat trying to think of something that would make you feel special, but instead, i just wrote this so you know why i cant possibly make you feel special, why i feel so bad, and i  hope you understand a little what i would do if i could, and that i wish i had that power to, but i dont, and once again, sorry for being no help, and sorry for being so useless. i love you stephanie marie galvan,

love always, anthony ortega